Jealousy

ATE is different from JEALOUSY </3
ACCORDING TO WIKIPEDIA
HATE
  is a deep and emotional extreme dislike, directed against a certain object.
is often associated with feelings of anger and disposition towards hostility,against  the objects of hatred.
an awareness that something is bad combined with an urge to withdraw from it.
a desire for the annihilation of an object that is incurable by time.
an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness.
JEALOUSY
  is a secondary emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection.
is often reinforced as a series of particularly strong emotions and constructed as a universal human experience.
a complex of thoughts, feelings, and actions which follow threats to self-esteem and/or threats to the existence or quality of the relationship, when those threats are generated by the perception of a real or potential attraction between one’s partner.

    A friend of mine told me that I got jealous of someone that’s why I end up single, but I told her I wasn’t because at that time I was starting to HATE the things that are happening to me. The person took me for granted, made me feel I was nothing but a useless shit, told me I will end up being nothing. That moment I realized that my love is turning into HATE and I wanted to withdraw myself from something I once thought might change if I just give everything I can. Luckily, I saw a door that will help me escape from my nightmare. I hate the fact that I was just a fall back, that whenever that person have no choice I will suddenly become someone again to his world, and when the person he wants to be there for him was there near him he will just like put me on “invisible mode” like what you do in yahoo messenger. I was never jealous because I want an escape for something that I don’t want anymore. When you say you’re jealous, it means there’s still LOVE but in my case, I think I gave my 101% already so I’m in the point where I got tired of someone I thought will really change if only I focused on all the things he wants me to be and he wants me to do. Do you know the feeling where you’re in the line, feeling excited for your turn but in the end someone told you that you have to come back again because the given time is over? What would you feel? you’ll hate it right? Because you thought you’ll make it and be happy after the long wait. The love that you felt suddenly turned into hate and disappointment. Then you will realized that you’re no longer feeling anything about something you once fight for, that jealousy isn’t there anymore because you don’t feel insecure, afraid and frustrated just to prove something to that person, And you just simply want to end the things that makes you unhappy. Hate is a feeling where you are not satisfied with everything you are in, that you feel like you’ve been doing everything but it’s not working anymore no matter how eager you are fix things there will be no longer hope to make it right because you don’t want it anymore and you don’t already feel anything.
What makes HATE different from JEALOUSY is that,
in HATE you no longer feel the love that you used to feel because you realized that no matter what happened there will be no reason for you to be loved by that person and all you just want to do is to end things the right way without caring about whatever the other person feels, While in JEALOUSY you still feel the love that you want to give to that person and you will do anything just to fight for it.
In Hate you don’t feel love instead you are disappointed, angry and want to end the things that is hurting you already because of too much love you felt before that no longer EXIST.
In Jealousy you are defensive, insecure and eager to make things right that no one can be compared to you because you can do everything so, no one can get the most important person you have.
So the next time you fall inlove, CHOOSE the person who will never make you want to hate the world and make you feel jealous but value you like you’re the most important person in the world that can never be cheated on, never make you feel useless, never make you blind with the things you are seeing, never take you for granted, never test the love you have and most importantly never attempt to even let go of your hand no matter how complicated your situation is.